Lately my love for my husband is growing strong. We have been fighting and arguing non-stop every week. I been crying and angry and up set and being all emotional because of the mean things he said about me.
I admit I do have angry inside of me and I am working on it. I taking angry management and working with my therapist. I have been telling myself and believing that I am strong and I am not alone. I am beautiful and I am wonderful for my children. I am a hard worker and I am great.
My husband think otherwise.
All he does is complain about me. And tell me and everyone else all my flaws and how crazy and angry I am. He insults me mentally and I should stand up against that and defend myself. That is all negative. In my time of need when I am going though alot he made it hes business to judge me instead of being there for me and supporting me.
It have been very complicated with him. He is the type of person who loves winning and controlling. He had admitted to me that he lost all of those and he does not know what to do. Yet he takes all of his angry on me and trying to take my children away.
When a person whom you love so much, have up everything to be with you, have a family with you and now wants to destroy you by trying to take your joy (my cubs) away is not right. It hurts so much. He have not been there to any of my appointments and he does not even know how many bottle my Cubs drinks a day or when he naps. He even admitted that he doesnt have time to take care of them when I want to work outside, just a part time job, heck a summer job while he is home during the day.
I still love him.
After all of this, I still live him. And it is not right to be going though all of this all on my own. My husband said he have to make decisions and he have to determine to leave me or not.
It takes two people to fight, to talk to do almost everything even make babies.
At one point he had stated he regret meeting me and have children with me. And said that my Cubs will suffer if they stay with me. Trust me I had gone though many doctors and stated nothing is wrong and what he is doing is trying to control me. I am fighting back and he does not like it. My aunts and cousins are helping me out. And they all see this. He’s family see this but of course they will back him up even when he is wrong because the female is always wrong in their mind.
We as females gone though alot and no body see this yet everyone expects so much from us. We are wonder woman and we are awesome. I will never let anyone take that away from me.